I, J.N. Manokaran was born in a Christian family in the city of Madurai, Tamil Nadu, India. My mother Suganthi was a first generation convert from a Hindu back ground. My father Joseph was from a traditional Christian family. God was gracious that four of us were brought up in Christian discipline like reading bible daily, prayers, Sunday school and Sunday worship services. In the year 1979 (when I was 17 years) my mother went to be with the Lord and I was studying Diploma course in Civil Engineering. From then on I deviated from Christian life and became active in campus politics and entered electoral politics in the college. However, the campus was in turmoil and the management of the institution changed hands. The new management listed about 60 students and suspended them temporarily from the institution. I was one among them. The parents were summoned, an apology was received from students and the students go admission again. But, 15 students were not invited that included me. My life was shattered.